I feel as though this fight is not around me but within me
It’s as though my organs are fighting within me
Every day I seek to do what’s right
Yet I wish to lash out and do everything unexpected
If it were not for God
The person I am now would not exist
If it were not for God
The man I despise is who I would be
I feel as though I desire both good and evil
As if my desires themselves are fighting each other
How can this be?
Can I truly desire opposites?
I might be being tricked to desire evil
Or convincing myself to desire good
How can I know what it is I truly want?
Or is that something I can choose?
Why is it when I only wish to do good,
That I desire evil the most?
When everything seems to be great,
That deep down I wish to destroy it?
I know that God is the reason for who I am
It is when I stray from Him that I become who I do not wish to be
It is through Jesus that I am saved
And by Him only that I can become the man I wish to be
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